WHAT CAN EASE THE PAIN?

It's early (and mostly sunny!) autumn again. But I don't enjoy it in the way I expected. Since last September everything has changed for me - with the death of my mum and my son going to university abroad! A double absence that I still can't get used to... This moment of the year enlarges the pain.

So... Here's my momentary portrait (through my eyes):

I AM suffering, missing, crying, waiting, often in a low spirit...

I FEEL tired, sad, confused in a way, but at the same time full of creative ideas and hope.

I think what I NEED is:

a change
refreshment
a challenge
something new
work, work, work
time
more sleep
more energy
coffee
a nice movie
a friend's smile
a child's hug
satisfaction
everyday joy (if possible)
stimulating thoughts, not negative ones
faith
courage
to calm down
to go back to the past as rarely as possible
to look ahead
to listen to the others
to listen to myself
to eat less bread and cakes, more fruits and vegetables ;)
to drink more water
to finish reading the lovely books, brought specially for me from abroad
to fulfill my papercut ideas
to put on stage a new puppet show
a change

Love? I have it!:)

P.S. I crawled "out of my shell" to write all this...

WHAT DO YOU THINK?

Hello, everybody! Here's a question that was born out of sudden doubts, uncertainty and unexpected thoughts, appearing and disappearing like shadows in a sunny day, when clouds travel across the sky... 
Don't you have the feeling that sometimes we idealize, in a way, our life, when making it visible to the others (mostly uknown readers) through putting our experiences into words that differ to a certain extent (consciously or not) from the real situation? We usually write about something good and beautiful, about love and inspiration and I would like such moments to last for long... But then life brings us other experiences that do not deserve sharing and we (at least me) keep silent about them...
My blog turned to be something like a diary - for nearly about everything that has been important for me and has marked more or less my life during the last four years. It's also a very special place to talk with many lovely people I have met while blogging, some of whom I feel very dear to my heart! I'm so happy about my journey in Blogand!
But still that suspicion of not being always completely sincere (with whom?!) sneaks from time to time. Maybe because I continue to hide in my shell a part of me...