It's early (and mostly sunny!) autumn again. But I don't enjoy it in the way I expected. Since last September everything has changed for me - with the death of my mum and my son going to university abroad! A double absence that I still can't get used to... This moment of the year enlarges the pain.
So... Here's my momentary portrait (through my eyes):
I AM suffering, missing, crying, waiting, often in a low spirit...
I FEEL tired, sad, confused in a way, but at the same time full of creative ideas and hope.
I think what I NEED is:a change
work, work, work
a nice movie
a friend's smile
a child's hug
everyday joy (if possible)
stimulating thoughts, not negative ones
to calm down
to go back to the past as rarely as possible
to look ahead
to listen to the others
to listen to myself
to eat less bread and cakes, more fruits and vegetables ;)
to drink more water
to finish reading the lovely books, brought specially for me from abroad
to fulfill my papercut ideas
to put on stage a new puppet show
Love? I have it!:)
P.S. I crawled "out of my shell" to write all this...